So it has been a MONTH since I last posted??? Wow. And I have to say it has been quite on purpose. This avoiding thing. So my new goal, for me and just me, will be to post daily. Even if it is just a sentence. To keep myself company. Over the last month the backlash took over. Ran amok as one might say. I stopped doing things that kept me present. I am going to try and be there for me in this form.